The Way I See It

I used this statement when I talked about how I was changing my view on life. I could notice the shock and unfavorable reactions from several of my peers instantly when I stated these remarks. I could grasp how they felt and what they were thinking. Most of the time, the phrase “New World Order” has a bad connotation. When people say those words, the first thing that comes to mind is usually someone who desires to take over the entire world. This is exactly the opposite of what I thinking. I said it because of how I was feeling and the fresh methods by which I was thinking. It was how I was going to transform my life, the way I thought, my point of view, and my mental state of mind!

For a long time, I thought negatively. Life had just been throwing me one terrible thing after another. I was continuously in survival mode, mentally readying myself for the worst. This way, I would be prepared to endure the pain and suffering that was about to come my way. It was a foolish way of thinking that culminated in many poor decisions. In the end, I was only person who endured the pain, and it led me down a path of self-doubt, sleepless nights, and lifeless days.

Then followed the revelation from experienced professionals and self-reflection. The question arose. “What is your default setting?” . The experiences mentioned above forced me to open Pandora’s Box and, for the first time in a long time, ask myself to be completely truthful with myself. I recognized that I had devoted my whole life living for others. People pleasing was easy thing for me at first. I had always had to figure out things on my own. I didn’t want others to feel that way.  but it slowly suffocated me as time went by. Unexpectedly, it had completely transformed my beliefs and thoughts.Blessings transformed into a burden, and anger and resentment arose when I perceived slights or, worse, when I was given orders rather than requested to fulfill duties.

The objective of my New World Order was of altering my default settings. Self-care became the number one priority. I was consistently persuaded to believe that valuing yourself was an act of selfishness. The transformation happened when I decided to examine my values, beliefs, and negative emotions. Were what I was instructed and trained as a child true to the way that things worked? What principles and concepts were the individuals who had passed on them to me abiding to? Was this method of thinking as well as behaving beneficial to me? As you may have guessed… The response was an emphatic “NO”! I revised my methodology. Question everything and have no presumptions.

It is still a work in progress, and some areas are easier to make adjustments than others. I know there are certain things that I won’t ever do ever again. My life, growth, development, and emotional well-being all depends on it! I cannot erase the past, however, I am capable of making certain I refrain from repeating it!

NWO 4 LIFE